'Sentimental Rubbish'

Just another day without your 'presence'.

Two weeks and two days without you kills me up inside. There are so many things I miss about you.

I find it hard to control my mood swings that's why I miss the way you make me smile. You are the reason behind my happiness despite all the bugbears and inequities that I am facing each day.

Missing that 'scheduled regular chatting with you'. I miss 'growing eyebags with you'. Though staying up late makes my head ache, I still loved doing it with you. I like sharing personal stories and opinions with someone I barely know (which I never do). Well, maybe I just feel comfortable sharing my entire life with you.

I miss it when you call me 'Banana', 'Nana' or 'Na'.

We have things in common. We can't say 'no', we hate dancing, and both of us like 'Just The Way You Are'. We also have the same reasoning in choosing a partner. But yes, you don't have much in common with anybody 'cause you are perfectly unique.

'YOU make me nervous'. I don't even know why. You said it's perfectly the other way around, I said no. I was the one who was biting nails while waiting for your response. You said maybe because you are not used to talking to people who are stalking your poems then you laughed. Maybe I've been a 'stalker' who loved reading your notes.

You made me realize that I also deserved to be happy. And no one should ever control my life because this is MY life.

"So now I'm alone and life keeps movin' on

But my destination still unknown, oh yeah

Will there be a time when I'll fall in love again?"

They say, I should let go and move forward but 'Will there be a time when I'll fall in love again?', 'cause the last time I checked... I found out that it's still you.

"Now it's time for me to find my happiness again

And the emptiness from missin' you

Will never ever end, baby..."

Yes, the emptiness from missing you will never end. I miss you.

How I wish you never turned your back on me 'cause despite all those revelations, I STILL WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND. :(

03.29.11/2:15am