Thursday, May 12, 2011

Random...

Buti naman at hindi ka bitter (you know who you are). Sorry talaga. I tried naman kaso di talaga. Ok na rin na sinabi ko na ng maaga. Friendship lang talaga maooffer ko. Thanks sa time and effort. Minsan lang talaga dumarating yun time na di ko naappreciate yung mga bagay at tao sa paligid ko that's the time when I really want to be alone. Alright, sige. FRIENDS! See you next year if ever. Pero baka di kita pansinin unless ikaw ang mauna. Wag mo nang itanong kung bakit. Di ko alam kung bakit pero ganun talaga ako eh.

Lethargic guy, haha! nakaganti rin ako sa lahat ng kagaguhan mo! Asahan mo na lagi pa kitang pag-iinitan. Bagong salta ka lang pero ang angas mo! Ano, suntukan? haha. Kawawa naman yung gf mo. Alam ba naman niya pinaggagawa mo? Feeling gwapo ka noh? Wala akong regrets sa mga kasamaang pinaggagawa ko sa'yo.


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There's something wrong with me. Lately napapansin ko yung pagiging mainitin ng ulo ko. Lagi akong inaatake ng mood-swings at madalas kong pag-initan yung mga taong walang ginawa kundi sirain ang araw ko. Naisip ko tuloy yung sinabi ni Ma'am Kit (SYKES)... Naiinis siya sa mga taong nakakainis tapos di na mawawala yun. Parang pareho kami. Although dumarating yung times na nawawala, permanenteng andyan eh. Kahit walang ginagawa sa'kin.


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Hindi ako nagseset ng requirements para maging kaibigan ko. Pero sino ba naman ang may ayaw sa mga taong totoo. Ayoko sa mga mapagpanggap, ilusyonada, plastic, mayabang, epal, sinungaling at kung anu-ano pa. Maging totoo ka lang. Ayoko rin sa mga inggitera. Laging kinukumpara ang sarili sa iba. Trying hard. Papansin, malandi, madaldal at sobrang arte.


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I think I need to stop overthinking. It's not good for my health. Reduce stress... Ito na naman. haist!

To myself:
  • Try to react on the situation itself, wag sa stress.
  • Focus. Do all the things that need to be done and do not overcommit yourself in too many variant tasks because you'll never finish them the way you wanted them to be.
  • Relax. Chill.
  • Take steps to improve your weaknesses.
  • Smile.
  • Be happy.
  • Above all PRAY!

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I'm starting to think that I am crazy and it's getting worst. tsk tsk!

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

Not over you yet, but I want to be your friend. :(

I still miss you. :(

Perplexed. I always check my inbox. Hoping that one day you'll post a reply. I am not anticipating but the hope is still here. Yes, perplexed. I am always confused. Whenever I'm ready to forget about you, then I'll realize that it is still you.

Sorry for being an enigma. I know I've been a source of annoyance to you. I let my heart control my mind and I let my emotions reign. 

It's always good to know that you're alright and you are happy with your chosen profession. I hope that one day you'll be back- as a friend who will make me realize that I also deserve to be happy and who will show me the meaning of life.  You'll always have a special place here in my heart

I'm not over you yet, but I want to be your friend. :(